no matter how hard I try

no matter how hard I try - I tell myself once in a while that I should do things differently - perhaps I run through everything and how I might wish to do things and I try - perhaps ten times I try and ten times it fails or I begin and then poof - the whole thing blows up in my face - so I have begun just to let things happen - nothing has to be on time or at a certain time or in a certain way - I even accidently deleted two galleries - one with 1,000 images and another with about 3 or 400 images and as I was re uploading the images in the first gallery I discovered a faster method for me to take to up load my images and I discovered while half way through that Imagekind had just in the middle of everything created a faster up loader to things are really going great with the more relaxed and as things happen attitude - :-)


12-5-2009YABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRT by Walter Paul Bebirian

THE OUTLIER

I believe that the concept of an outlier – someone whose abilities or success falls so outside the normal bell curve that he or she is considered to be an outlier has been connected to the 10,000 hour mark in a book with that title – whether or not this is true is difficult to say since using a few examples of both observed people as well as his own life experience is somewhat of a shaky use of any scientific evidence to call something proof – but Malcolm has done such and therefore the 10,000 hours example will be touted by many for decades perhaps eons to come – while my experience as an artist is so much different than that – the successes that I have had both in the commercial world as well as the artistic world and in every other world that I have functioned in has both been extremely of a different nature as well as perhaps totally contrary to what is being described –

The successes I experience come from a complete – what I call – relaxing into whatever it is that I am do – such that I am there for an infinitely long moment – and am not going anywhere else ever when I am in that particular infinitely long moment – and when – as far as I believe – anyone else begins even to ever so slightly understand what it is that I am now rambling on about – they will have cracked an even more unusual code for success than has ever been worked on and searched for and conjured up so far till this point in time –

This is something that I have known not just in the last few years or for a major part of a business or professional career – but something that I became profoundly aware of back in grammar school –
12-11-2009ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQR by Walter Paul Bebirian

contradictions -

all my life I have seen people all around me - look to get the most amount of food for the least amount of money - ie. buying things on sale - and then they eat too much and have to spend even more money on trying to loose the excess weight that they have gained from eating too much of the food that they bought on sale - all of this would have been avoided if they put less effort into trying to get more for less in the first place -


12-6-2009DABCDEFGHIJK by Walter Paul Bebirian

how things work

so many things that perhaps should make sense don't work that way and as well so many things that don't make sense seem to work perfectly for whatever reason - who knows -


11-30-2009XABCDEFG by Walter Paul Bebirian